How hard is it to adapt to change?

Change…Well this is all too relevant to my year thus far. We are only in the month of March but everything has been a whirlwind of stress, tears, passion, drive, positivity, lack of passion and did I mention stress?

I am a Graduate Assistant at Cape Peninsula University of Technology, I facilitate Media Studies Writing for our first year students and I am a full time BTech Public Relations student. Basically, I am a ninja and I live a double life. (Well that's what it feels like)

If you told me two months ago that, I would be this crazy busy I would probably laugh at you! Yes you!

I manage two lives. Work me. Student me.

I manage two Facebook accounts.

I manage two Twitter accounts.

I manage students.

I manage myself as a student

I lecture

I receive lectures

I give assignments

I receive assignments

It is all too strange. The transitions from being the one ‘in charge’ to walking into a classroom, switching off ‘work me’ and trying to pay attention to the lectures. I have to stop myself from saying “good morning class, so today we will be looking at…” 

Word around the block is that I am always busy. The truth is I am and I am still finding my way around work, play and studies. It is tough adapting to this new change in my life. I appreciate this opportunity and take this as a learning curve; however, it feels that I cannot give my studies a 110% as I have a responsibility towards my students and towards my colleagues. Yes, the pressure is on. If my mom was reading this she would probably tell me to stop complaining and take things in my stride, however, it is extremely difficult when everyone depends on you. One has to be very dedicated, able to put in more hours than usual and work a million times harder than everyone.

Whoever told me I could do both. You lied. Nevertheless, thank you for seeing something in me that I cannot yet.

What makes this all worthwhile? The students and If I can make a difference in the life of at least one student then I will be happy J If one of them can remember the 5W’s and H then I will be over the moon. And passing this year of course.

I am learning. I am falling flat on my face at times but if there is one thing that I have learnt is that I have to get up, fix my little face and move along.

I am learning to trust myself, trust my instincts, observe and determine who to trust and I am absolutely IN LOVE with my diary and post-its, without it, my life would be a total mess!.

Until next time,

Saarah ox